Wednesday, April 2, 2008

The waiting is the hardest part

I thought this phase would be the easiest. Less needles, no visits to the office, no sonos, no blood draws. Well, I was flat out WRONG. This sucks.

Here's a little background. I am an online marketing professional and am lucky enough to work from home. This has been extremely beneficial during this period, as I have been able to have a flexible schedule and continue working while having my feet up (I'm on my couch as we "speak"). However, not having the normal day to day co-worker interactions, meetings and general goings on of the work day leaves me alone with my thoughts, which is never a good thing.

I'm pretty much afraid to do anything at this point. Afraid to laugh, afraid to go to the bathroom, afraid to make any sudden movements. I don't want to give these guys anywhere to go but my uterus. I'm also obsessing over the fact that they were only 5 & 6 celled embryos. I was cool with it on Monday, but the longer I think about it, the more it bugs. I don't really feel much going on and I'm afraid it's a bust from the beginning. Argh! Stupid IF.

7 comments:

JJ said...

Waiting is definitely the hardest part...hope you can relax and take it easy as much as possible!

tam said...

I don't blame you for being bugged by that, because you and any normal person would be bugged by any imperfection of the process right now. You're looking for reasons to think this didn't work, so in case it doesn't, you're prepared. Just remember you know absolutely nothing yet, and HANG IN THERE. I'm checking in daily and thinking of you lots.

Kymberli said...

You are so right - the wait is the toughest part. I'll be thinking good throughts for you through your 2ww and beyond!

sara said...

How are you hanging in there? Just wanted to say I hope things are going well...keep me posted. I know of a lot of people who have had great results from some 6 cell embryos...as so many people have been telling me. You have one job to do today..only one thing is expected of you...that's to keep breathing. That's about the only thing I've been able to do lately. Lots of hugs..

Candi B. said...

I am feeling the same way. I am starting to stink because I don't want to get up long enough to shower!! I am 3dp3dt, so maybe tonight I will consider trying to wash myself, lol!! HANG IN THERE...we're gonna make it!

Tara said...

I took time off to do IVF this time and it has been both a blessing and a curse. While I was able to relax and sleep when I needed to (and not be stressed out from work crap) - it also kept me from interacting with the outside world which is making me start to go a little stir-crazy.

ESPECIALLY in the 2ww. The waiting is definitely the hardest part.

Hope you can find something to occupy your mind and get you through.

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sara said...

Thanks for the first comment girl....I hope you're just a few steps (few days) behind....take it easy!