October 4, 2007. I go in to the hospital to have my Lap & Hysteroscopy and am later diagnosed with diminished ovarian quality.
October 4, 2008. My baby shower.
I am getting bigger by the day and feel disgusting.
My body is voluptuous and I feel sexy.
I am afraid of change - good, bad, you name it. I don't handle it well.
I can't wait to meet this baby.
I wish I had more time.
I want it here tomorrow.
I am worried about how my marriage will change.
I can't wait to see how this changes our marriage.
I'm going to be a terrible mother.
I'm going to kick ass at this mothering stuff.
I am petrified.
I am elated.