Been a while. Still in the 2ww. I started spotting on Monday (same as last time), but it has progressively gotten darker, and more red. Leading me to believe that this was a bust. I haven't had a good feeling about it since the beginning, so methinks I may have been right all along.
This sucks. I'm actually more angry than sad at this point. I can't help but think that if I had a handle on my fertility (or lack thereof) earlier in my life, than maybe this could have been avoided. Maybe it could be avoided for a lot of women. Don't you think it would be in our best interests to do some sort of check on the female reproductive system during a GYN visit? Give the woman the knowledge of whether or not she'll be able to conceive. Give her the option of freezing her eggs, if she's not ready to reproduce at that time. If I had known then what I know now, I would have done this. Then I would have some healthy eggs to work with.
If I end up with a negative test, I really don't know what our next steps are. Not sure if it's worth doing this again, especially if my eggs are getting worse. Not sure how I feel about egg donor or adoption at this point. Maybe we'll just stick with what we've got. G is the bestest little boy around, so I am very thankful for that. Just wish I could give him a little brother or sister.
Sorry for rambling